Fears (Rational and Irrational)

So I saw that Jenna and Ranger had posted lists of irrational fears... which come to find out Creager did first... but my initial reaction was to be like... "oh, I don't EVEN think so!" Which is, in and of itself, actually one of my irrational fears! So, here goes...
1. Fear of drowning. Not really that irrational, since I have managed to "almost" drown... like 4 separate times. Now I get that crippling fear whenever I can't touch the bottom, and loose hold on what holds me afloat.
2. Fear of cockroaches in my bed/hair. Yeah, nuff said? This is what comes of living in crappy basement apartments (I swear there was a nest behind the wall in between my room and the bathroom!) And, thank you, I have had one fall out of my hair before (camp situation), and I didn't feel safe all week!! Rats and flies in my food markets, ant infestations, spiders (even brown recluse, black widow, or wolf spiders), yeah, I can handle all that... but a single roach is enough to turn my stomach and have me cowering in fear.
3. Fear of people knowing me too well. Yeah, don't even tell me that I am predictable... that one put me into a tailspin for weeks!
4. Fear of small spaces. Yes, I am claustrophobic, and yes... you are standing too close!
5. Fear of being weak, or being seen as weak. Maybe its the stupid propaganda out there that tells us as American women that we have to be stronger than thou about everything. Maybe its just the way that I am wired (or more likely a rebellion against the way I am wired), but there is definitely something deep down within me that really HATES being weak, needing your help, being unable to cope...
The funny thing about fears is that once you can isolate them as such, you can usually deal with them. For example:
1. I know that I am deathly afraid of the water and of drowning... but I made myself swim back to shore the other day when my friends had dragged my log "raft" out to the middle of deep water in Tuttle.
2. I stomp roaches whenever possible, even if they are outside and not bugging (pun!) anyone. There's something empowering in that nice satisfying crunch as I grind their ugly, innocent bug brains into the ground. (no comments about my violent tendencies please, Ranger!)
3. One sure way of being unpredictable... randomness!! But no, seriously, I just have to make a conscious effort to let people in.
4. Small spaces are still not cool... but I can usually talk myself down. And my God likes to put me in small spaces just to test my ability to cope! (Cause He's cool like that!)
5. When it comes to my own weakness, though... lets be real, its there! But its not hopeless... okay, verse time!! "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." and I really can't say it any better than that!