So I am really getting the feeling right now that if I could just get good and mad at someone, or something for a bit, I would feel 10x better.
I know that is a lie of the devil in my life, cause this definitely isn't a Godly anger... and it definitely isn't an anger in which I wouldn't sin. But I am still stuck here with this feeling...
Almost like the anger would be able to unleash some sort of pent up aggression that I have been harboring towards situations in my life. And when I say situations, I really mean situations. I would have to honestly say that I am really not mad at the people who are involved in the situations, or even their actions or words which may have caused the situations.
Maybe I should take up boxing... hmmm...
But then I know that anger is not the key. Its what I want, but its not what would really make me feel better. In the end I would feel just as bad, if not worse. And the potential to damage relationships is... well, huge.
What I need is the exact opposite... a fresh dose of God's love. Both poured out over my life, and then spilling out of my overflowing cup onto/into those situations around me and ultimately into other's cups... and the chain keeps going...
I don't need anger... I need Love.
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We could get into a fake argument, yelling, screaming etc... and make up some awful stuff to say. I'd even let you tackle me if that would help. That almost sounds fun! let me know if you're in need of something like that.
thanks Liz!! I do appreciate the offer... I'll let you know if it remains unresolved and I am in need of that kind of psychotherapy!! lol!
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