The Last Will...

So when I was getting set to run over to Africa this summer for 6 weeks, I had pretty much no idea what I was getting into. Part of the time though, I did know that I would be up-country towards the north in what some of you may know as the "Invisible Children" region of Uganda. That area of the country has been/continues to be slightly unstable and I had no idea what all I might run into. With this degree of uncertainty, I decided to write a will in my journal that would state just some of what I would want if I was to die. (Does that sound really morbid?)
Now let me stop the story right there and just tell you that I am really not afraid to die. (Does that sound boastful?) Has to do with my amazing Savior, and His amazing love for me, and my trust that He really leads me in the ways that He wants me to walk in! So, lets just say that I was really not afraid at all to go to Africa, cause I really felt like that is where God wanted me, and it was complete peace! (Which is pretty stellarly amazing! (and yes, stellarly is a word!))
Okay, so back to the story, see... I was reading something today that reminded me of writing the Last Will and Testament of Joanna, and so I read back over what I had written.
It was actually kinda crazy. I think that everybody should try and sit down and write a will sometime. Just get out on paper all the things that you would want people to know if you were no longer around! It was one of THE hardest things that I have ever done. How do you fit a lifetime of love and laughter into a few words that you want people to know?
I remember crying as I was typing it, because there just weren't words to let people know how much I really appreciate their presence and contribution to my life! How do you tell that to someone in such a way that you really communicate it... because you are already gone, and all they have is a piece of paper that says "I loved you!".
The really sad thing is the my little sister, who is 10 years younger than me... and loves to use my computer got on and was looking for another file and accidentally found it. She said she cried so hard when she was reading it. That must have been even more rough than trying to write it; trying to read what someone else would want to say to you if they passed away!
Anyway, I was just thinking, partially from what I read today, what would I want people to remember about me after I am gone...
I think that definitely the first thing I would want them to think of what my love for God, but I am not entirely sure that if I died tomorrow, that is the biggest thing that would stick out about my life. Again, everybody should so totally do this just as a way of standing back and looking at your life... thinking of all the people that you really love and telling them as much... thinking of what legacy you are going to leave behind... realizing how little all the material things of this life are really worth... that you can't take it with you. "Naked I came into this world, naked I will return." -- nothing really matters more than the people around you and your relationship with God! That is really the only thing that you get to take with you...