Jenny and Jennifer both commented on my You know you’ve spent time in Africa when… note, and said that it made them laugh and cry like a really good book. Then I went back and read it and I was like… hmm, no wonder. I wanted to cry myself, because so much of my heart was poured into trying to explain how much I love and miss Uganda… I can’t even explain it here for you. It runs too deep to be unearthed, too sensitive and fragile to be reached for without pain, and too strong to break off a piece for observation. It’s all or nothing… which has been such a theme in my life of late… From everything silly like my AC and windshield wipers that only work on high, to eating grasshoppers and getting my hair braided(because if you’re gonna embrace the culture, embrace it all the way), to really deep things like how God wants me to live for Him. Like how His love for me is demonstrated. Like the fact that when He says something, He never means it half-heartedly. He means you to go big or go home. None of this mediocre/run-of-the-mill/complacent living stuff. When God gives us a command He means it in the present tense active voice. And He doesn’t say things radically and mean them conservatively. That is our silly laid-back American church style of looking at it… that God only said it like that for emphasis. No, I think God is a very literal God and when He said it was all made in 7 days I believe Him. When He says He loves me enough to die for every single little thing that I have and ever will do wrong, I believe Him. And when He tells me that I am to go unto all the world, I think that means me. And when He tells me to share with those in need, to love my enemies the way He does, to pray continually, to owe nothing but love to the brethren; yeah, I believe Him there as well, that those are literal commands. Not cute suggestions to be taken with a grain of conservative salt.
Okay I love, absolutely love, it when God opens my eyes to things like that.
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