Incomplete Workings/Complete Joy

I was looking back through my recent posts to this blog... quite a shame actually, almost all of them are drafts that have yet to be published... tsk, tsk on me. But none the less, I was looking back through them and came to a very decided conclusion. I've been more or less disjointed in the last several months.
My sister said something yesterday while we were hanging out...
*okay, let me pause here to say that in my family the most silliness, laughing, and other mayhem happens in the kitchen directly after meals once my parents clear out and leave the rest of us to finish cleaning up and doing dishes, etc... This is in fact where/what we were doing last night when this conversation happened...*
She said, "you are a lot funnier when you have enough sleep!" I think that she was operating off the general assumption that the reason that I had been so grumpy/down the last several times that I was at the house was my lack of sleep and general exhaustion resulting from nursing school. "Not so Mr. Skylar!"
My lack of joy in life resulted from the discombobulation of my life in general. In the last month I had come under such extreme pressure from school, financial strain, my car broke down, and I was trying to take finish strong in school while working night shifts... ugh. But that was not my problem. I had some very strained relationships, both with those directly around me, and with some others that are very dear to my heart, not to mention a relative that I love very dearly. But that was not my problem either. My problem was that in all of this, I didn't run to the very person, scratch that, the ONLY PERSON that could have held all those problems in His powerful arms for me!
That much being said, let me just say that my sister attributed the joy to the wrong source. It wasn't an increase in sleep that has me ready to tackle the day. In fact, I'm not thoroughly convinced that there has been an increase! Its the daily submission of that day to God and His glory and His pleasure.
Its a beautiful kind of glorious to rediscover your first true Love after finding emptiness everywhere else.